The moment Alfie touches him he sobs, even if his muddled brain isn't sure if he's allowed- but he can't hold back as he shakes apart in Alfie's lap, coming in thick, hot spurts. His eyes press closed and he keeps coming around Alfie's fingers- dry, but still jerking his hips, still shaking. He falls forward eventually and wraps his arms around Alfie's neck. His breath is irregular and raspy in Alfie's ear.